Why can’t I just trust life? Why do I second guess and doubt everything and every one around me? I’ve had this conversation with my therpist a thousand times and neither of us can come up with a good answer. I’m starting to think it’s borderline paranoia. I always doubt people’s intentions, second guess myself and everything else, and assume the worst! It’s so frustrating because I KNOW better! I know I’m not meant to fail, or live in depravity. I know no one is out to screw me, or lying to me. I know these to be a fact. But this small voice in my head keeps whispering in my ear. How do I get it to just shut UP already? Sheesh!
I’m a good person, people like me and enjoy my company. I have a good job and a roof over my head and two wonderful (feline) girls at home and a family most people would kill to have. I want to make an embodiment of this doubt and beat the living hell out of it and tell it to leave me alone already!!
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How in god's name did "roof" come up as a tag for my post? LOL
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just read your post. there is a line in your post when u said 'roof over my head'. :) hello nikki, take each day at a time girl, wish i can help you other than this. :)
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ooohhh, I didn't catch that. Doi. Stupid tags. Thanks. It's something I just gotta do myself.
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i have some paranoia too. but i don't think about it or else it will become stronger everyday. i take the deepest breath and assure myself it's gonna be okay. in times like this, We SHOULd be in control :)
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try thought stopping all paranoid thoughts and guesses and instantly shift your focus on things that make you happy, or even concrete stuff like the way you're brething, how your toes feel..lol.. anything else for a while and go ahead and live life as if you didn't ever have these "voices" so kinda like living the lifesyle as if you've already beaten those old patterns.. one day at a time's good too.. good luck!
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My therapist gave me a similar solution. THe rubber band method. Wearing a rubber band on my wrist and the second a negative thought comes in, snap my wrist to stop the thinking pattern and think of something else. I put a picture of one of my babies (cat) on my desk and look over at that as soon as I snap myself.
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yuo are inscure. I think you should do your first instinct, choice, etc. If it is what you are first drawn to then it must be the best thing for you.