My family has no money, I have next to no friends at school , my grades are getting worse, and i can’t find my alternatives to cutting and punching holes in my wall till my hands are bleeding or broken. I am normal at times, then I change. I love and am happy, then I’m destructive and hateful. I almost started to cut yesterday because my friend told me they hated me and my best friend called me a freak-o-nature behind my back. I can’t trust anyone and my hate grows every time I have to wake up and come to school. Please help me for I need someone’s advise. HELP ME!!!
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Brother, I know how you feel. Before you get too worked up, consider first that the kind of help you really need may not be available on here. If you're in college, march yourself into the student counseling center and make an appointment. I know this sounds dorky, but the up and down nature of your condition *may* need further investigation. The aggression is definitely unhealthy and you want to get that in check before you end up accidentally hurting yourself or someone else. It's not unusual to feel like this - especially at this point in your life- but you need to work out a healthy sieve for all your emotions before you turn into The Exploding Man. Take the first step, find someone to talk with, and don't quit until the miracle happens. Good luck, man. We're all pulling for you in internet land :)
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Faith, those are great but infinitely unhelpful. Every town in America has outreach programs. For depression, finacial loss ect. The only thing you have to do is take the first step in finding these programs, and the put forth the effort to make them work
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Hay!!! Don't cut yourself its not worth it i know from experince, and those friends you spoke of aren't your friends if they talk about you like that, you can always make friends here, try wrighting poetry to eaze the stress and anger.
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I think faith's words were tremendously helpful. Everything she said is right - Annon. just won't figure that out until after he's gone through every other option.
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How old are you? I remember when I was in school, I was the short, fat girl that everyone made fun of. Friends were not many but the ones that were are still there after 25 years. I know what the anger and abuse is like both to you and around you and I am proof that you can get thru that. I'm not making meanial of your flight now, just know that life does not always get easier when you get older, you just get wiser.
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It sounds as if you are bipolar. That may be affecting your world.
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Thank you all and for the record I'm only 14. I am sick of being the "alternate" as it were. I've only wanted real friends and am damned by everyone. I am having a problem with myfriends because I am always pushed around, they do it less. As for my cutting. I do it for because I only feel human that way and I have punch holes in my wall because I feel powerful. I can't cut cause ithurts, and I can't punch cause I feel evil. I'm a lost being.
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U don't understand. I can't cry because it won't help. I can't cut because I feel guilty. I can't think of a reason to smile or laugh or have fun. I am mad and sick of everyone telling me the same answer I never hear how it doesn't help. My life is bad, and getting worse. As far as emo goes?..... I listen to As I Lay Dying and All That Remains so I don't know much on the emo scene. Any way I have therapy techniques like rubber bands. Punching is never stopping because I have the issue of hate towards others so I can't think of anything. I don't understand anymore. I don't know who I am anymore.
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So what do you do for fun these days? I'm serious.
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My god. I have no meaning. I think this is exactly what I needed, but I can't thank you who tried and succeeded enough. I realize my problems but I know no answers. Therapy made everything worse. I ran away from home 8 times and can't find love from anyone. I think that the closest thing to love I have is Amber. Thanks guys. I'm headed to bed so latah.
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I play guitar and Halo.
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If a reply has to have approval how do you show it. (open it)
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Hmmm are you in a band? Do you do any group activities?
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I'm in JROTC and am on rifle team and raider team.
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As far as a band. I'm not good enough. I can't play all that well.
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Do you like that stuff? As for the not good enough... just keep practicing
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Kinda. I'm in better shape and I've always loved shooting.Last core was 87 of 100.
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Dude its late thank u for support but I have lots to do tomorrow and in general I don't know about all the stuff alternatives to my habits. I might be on tomorrow. GOD BLESS U!!!!!!!!!!