I’ve been with my girlfriend (same age) for almost 3 years. It is probably the best girlfriend I’ve ever met in my life. During the 2nd year, I’ve met a younger girl and we had 5 years of difference between us and… I felt in love with… There were nights when I argued with my girlfriend, but we always got along after a while. But one night, we broke up… well… I did… because things weren’t going so well those days… and I also wanted to date the other girl… After breaking up with my girlfriend, we remained friends and I dated the other girl… I felt in live with because when I was younger, I always dreamed about having a life like one in those love story animes… Which happened with that girl (not my ex) Like… So many happy things… and things I’d think impossible to happen… For me it just a miracle…
I remember that night when we were lying together in my car. We were listening to music and drawing that we love each other on the window on her side.. and I remember when she stayed at home with me… I couldn’t stop looking at her. She was so cute and so beautiful. Sometimes she had problems and I stayed with her at night… I slept at her place a few times, she was like a baby… I really wanted to stay with her and protect her when I was looking at her sleeping. One day, I’ve driven so fast in town because I wanted to cook her something and I didn’t want the shop to close… That was funny. I knew she had problems with her family and was very stubborn and wouldn’t listen to her mum or brother, that she’s been in a life where you don’t want to be alone and need people around you, friends.
I knew that she had several boyfriends boyfriends before and I was maybe just one of them. One day, I found out she was still seeing 2 other guys. She had sex with them, kissed them… Sometimes she lied to me and she went to see them… Sometimes I wonder if it was not just for the money… I didn’t want to give up on her, although I knew all those things I wanted to change her even if it took my time to do it. And I know I could have done it.
I had so much affection for that girl at that time. I had so much respect for her and I would fight with all my life to protect her if I had to. I wanted to marry her, I wanted to make her happy forever and share everything I know and understand. Everything I wanted was to be part of her…I could have done it… But one day, it had to happen. I’ve been separated from her. From all the things I’ve knew. It was really hard. I nearly died of it, but somehow I made it. All those moments of pure happiness, I thought life took it back to me. I thought there was a balance in life, that makes everything balanced. And so much happiness for me, has been paid back by a torn shed and sad soul. I shed so much tears after being separated from her. I’ve called her almost everyday. We got along for a little while, then one day. She kissed an other guy. She already liked him in the past. He was staying with me and her most of the time. She brought it along with us many times… He is like a friend to me…
I don’t know if she was just using me, as many of her friends said she uses boys. One day she told me “I don’t wanna hurt you”.
She is now dating him. It’s been quite a while. Every time I see them hugging each other, it tears me apart. Every time I think about her and listen to sad songs or songs we used to listen together, I want to cry… What I had realize today is that it’s because I’ve made mistakes, and not because of anything else. I had made my ex very sad as well. I’ve acted the wrong way breaking up with her, and I made some other mistakes as well. It’s been more than a year, and I still think about my ex and that girl I went out with.
To put it simply, my ex was the best girlfriend I had, and that little girl gave me the best moments of my life. Today, I still can’t forget about them.
Why do I love 2 girls… Why do I still want to protect her and her? They are completely different persons, but both have something I do really care about.
I really my ex and that little girl gets all the happiness and love that she deserves from me, no matter who and what she chooses. I’d be glad to marry one of them one day, if life allows it… but I feel like even if I did some mistakes and even if I’ve been separated in such a painful way, I feel like… somehow…, life did it for me to prevent me from something. To give me the opportunity to do something… I haven’t given much details about this story. I just wanted to express myself because I don’t have a best friend.. but how can I get over being sad sometimes? It’s been more than a year and still, I have strong feelings for those 2 girls.
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Too long to read? ==> here is a RESUME I love 2 girls which are completely different. One is careful and loved me and I lived with for a while and it was really good. The other one seemed to have just interest by using me, but she gave me all the best moments I've dreamed about. I had to leave one day. Today I can't forget about them... it's been more than a year and it's still very sad sometimes, but somehow, I think it's meant to be like that for a reason.