I used to be successful in sales and now dont know what job to apply to and will soon be fired or leave from my job for non performance and cuz I dont like it. I just think of the past and want to be by myself. I dont want to live and I dont want to die. I want to sleep a long time. I just really like watching tv and eating and not much else. I dont even like being around friends any more. Dont like Xmas parties or being around anyone. Am scared of people. Insecure. Ashamed of myself. I have become a lazy fool. I am almost out of money and will then be headed for foreclosure. I am burned out of work and dont want to work anymore. Dont know what job to do and dont have confidence I can do anything. I need to work but dont feel like I can really- I used to be so driven and do so well. Did As a workaholic did I burn myself out into the ground. Now Im the opposite- no will. I would rather hide in my place but I cant do that forever so I therefore want to die. But I don’t want to hurt my family by killing myself. I feel like a total failure and have lost hope in myself.
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at least when you've hit bottom there is no where else to go BUT UP. Yes, i know you've hit hard times but because you have a family you will have to recover, Killing yourself is not a very good solution to anything. Seek help if you feel like your giong to hurt yourself.. I know you feel like there is nothing left but in order to start over you have to do a turn around, You have to remember that life isnt hiding and its actually finding a support system when you seclude yourself from people then you lose support from them when you need it most. I suggest, finding and looking for a new job and FINDING new confidence in you, and keep going even when times get hard, i know it sounds like the impossible, bu ttrust me its not i was where you were at one time and now i am better... best luck to you and know that it will get better not today or tomorrow but soon!
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I've felt like that before. Then I set a goal for myself & worked at it & everything else just kindof fell back into place. For me it was weight loss. I'd find myself wanting to just go to sleep & then thought: will that help me lose weight? No! I need to be active. So even tho I wasn't actually interested at being w/ friends at first, I went out with people & eventually started to enjoy being social again. Same thing with school/work. Weight loss made me confident & helped me master my impulses but your goal can be anything. I think we share the same kind of attitude, but I've learned that even if you feel like you're failing you CANNOT hide yourself in shame, or it will make it worse. You sound like an intelligent person so you've gotta know this. When you get your drive back I bet you'll do great things for yourself/the world... so don't put it off any longer! The world is waiting. :)
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I can relate almost perfectly. This is just like how I am in high school right now, so I thank everyone else for subconsciously helping me out as well. Good luck to you, too, Anonymous!