I didn’t ahve a particularly good day today. It wasn’t awful, but I’ve never been like this before. I feel extremely sad and I’m not even 100% sure why. I didn’t see my boyfriend yesterday and it was hard. I’m used to seeing him everyday. I don’t think I would have minded too much but he said he would come over and then he didn’t. It was weird. I saw him today though and I really missed him so I was happy, but I was just in a bad mood today. I don’t want to feel useless anymore. This whole not having a job thing is driving me crazy. Not to mention my mo got a second job today and I can’t even get one! Oh and I also am the reason she got the job as well. I put an ad up on craigslist for her housecleaning services and she said we could do it togther. I was happy about that because I want to contribute somehow. However, she decided to do teh job with some other lady.I’ve been applying like crazy, posting ads for nanny services and whatnot. I just feel useless. I know my mom needs help with the bills and I just wish i could do something. I was moping teh whole time I was with my friends today and now I feel bad about it. I think my boyfriend has even started to care less about my worries and problems. I don’t want to push him away with all of my issues. I know I need to really have a talk with him, but I don’t want to sound like I’m accusing him of anything. I’m just not diggin teh major depression thing. I was in bed most of the day and that just adds to my feeling pathetic. I don’t ant annyone to think I’m not trying. I really am and I feel bad that I can’t do better. I hate feeling liek such a loser. I’m 18 with no job and no lisence and I’m working hard to get both.I just want to feel like I’m actually doing something with my life instead of wasting it stuck at home all day while my mom is at work and my friends are at school or work. I’m just at a loss.
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ditto. im the same. and i have a kid!
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Yes I'm lucky in that matter. I have no one to support, but I know that I have to help out with the bills and start being an adult. Good luck to you though... better luck than me anyways, heh.
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uh yeah al i have to say is im the same except im 14 and failing all my classes and i just need help! and if i dont get my grades together i will get kicked out so ummm all we have to do is PRAY!
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you shouldnt be so hard on yourself. you know the toughest critics we will ever have to face is ourselves. i have read your post and i dont see a loser. i see an intelligent young woman who is being way to harsh on herself and blaming herself for circumstances out of her control. be patient you will find a job when the time is right. in the mean time if you want to help your mom out but have no way of financially helping out why not just do things around the house. run errands for her that she cant do cause shes at work. clean the house. make dinner for her. bag her a lunch. and while your online during the day post your resume anywhere and every where you can. dont allow yourself to be doing nothing at all. the more nothing you do the deeper into depression you will fall and youll feel even more useless. your not useless nor are you a loser. your doing what you have to, to get what you want. dont let it get you. as for the boyfriend i hate to be the one to break it to you but boys will be boys even when their men. their never interested in our issues. they only pretend to be interested til they feel they have you. if you want to talk to him go ahead just dont accuse and dont talk at him. otherwise hell get all defensive and noting but a wider rift between you two is accomplished and im sure thats not your goal. when you speak to him tell him how your feeling. say i dont say you you you. otherwise youll lose him figuratively speaking . his eyes will be on you but his mind elsewhere. ok enough rambling on for me. tc. and good luck.
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I WILL REPLY WITH ANY HELP I MAY OFFER SOON, OFF LINE, AND ON WITH LIFE AT THE MOMENT
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Nice one gypsy gal.