I’m 17, a punk, i live in south cali (which is so boring), and iv been to 8 different therapists and they all say the same thing. “you care too much”. But I dont really think that thats the problem. Iv been in such a heavy state of depression for the last about 2 years, I would do almost anything to just make it go away. I told my parents about my depression and they just did what all parents do, try to help but make it worse. I had to take anti-depressants for 6months and they really did nothing. After a while I got sick of taking them I just told my parents that they were working and now I just pretend to be satisfied with my life around them. After that I tried smoking pot but that just made it worse, because I would see my “friends” smiling and laughing, and wondered why I couldn’t feel that.. that was the last time cried. For the last I dont know how long, Iv always loved helping people. I never saw it as a problem… and I still dont. The only thing I do is get attached to the people i help, and after I help whoever they just kinda up and leave… with maybe a thank you. Its happened seven times now and I’m so sick of it. I met a girl this year that was going towards anorexia, I got her to stop and shes fine now(thank god) the first time we hung out we were just talking and playing games. But just that night I was so calm and happy it was like a breath of fresh air. Later I found out that she has a boyfriend in Texas but it didn’t effect me at all, yeah i like her a lot but to be honest I dont ever see my self being in a relationship with her because when I’m 18 Ill be in the air force, and I would never put a girl through having a boyfriend, husband, whatever, in the military, its too much. Shes the first person, thing, item, drug… the first anything thats made me truly smile in the last 2 years. And I really hope that if we dont go out, that we stay friends and I’m so afraid that if we dont stay as at least friends that ill go back into that depression.
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well i really don't know what to say to this. but i just wanted to leave a little love. because you deserve it; ♥
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i truly wish the best for you, explain this whole thing to her, and tell her you would be very happy to stay friends. joining the USAF is a very noble thing to do, and hopefully that will give you something to be proud of, because it is. I think youll be at least a bit happier in the USAF, at least i would, id feel a sense of accomplishment, like what i was doing really matters. Best of luck to you in everything.
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best thing to do is let the person know how much they actually mean being a friend. tonight i let a friend of mine for maybe a month now that shes a pretty special friend boyfriend or not. feels great =)
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i dont know what to say. I hope that you two stay friends for a long time. its not always easy finding true friends. God bless you for wanting to join the air force. We need more men like you. Good luck and i hope that no matter what you two remain good friends.
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U should tell her how u feel regardless if you'll be in a relationship with her or just remian friends. at least she'll know that she will alway have someone who cares about her no matter what
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Are you an only child? My guess would be yes! I am, and I find myself needing to help people to feel like I am needed, because I feel lonely and I have none to conect with. If this is the case then I think that when you join the military you will find that you have a connection or bond with those guys and you will begin to get alot happier! So just hold out till then and if you guys dont stay friends (which I dont think is going to happen) then it was her loss. And atleast you know you save her life in a way that alone should help you to be happy! Good luck
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Are you an only child? My guess would be yes! I am, and I find myself needing to help people to feel like I am needed, because I feel lonely and I have none to conect with. If this is the case then I think that when you join the military you will find that you have a connection or bond with those guys and you will begin to get alot happier! So just hold out till then and if you guys dont stay friends (which I dont think is going to happen) then it was her loss. And atleast you know you save her life in a way that alone should help you to be happy! Good luck im not an only child im the youngest of three, but then again my parents are kind of a disappointment. my dad runs our family like he runs his business and it dosent work it jsut drives us all away, so i find my parental figures else where like friends and friends parents. so im technically not but it sure dose seem like it. the only thing i hope ur wrong about is us not staying in contact :/ but it wouldnt be the 1st time i guess, thanks