i got here in august and to start everything off my girlfriend basically told me she hated me and never wanted to see me again…time went by, months, and here we are speaking again, looking forward to seeing each other when i get back. meanwhile the family im staying with decides that its too stressfull to have a student around so they kick me out…a couple days pass, we talk, and decide that i should stay with them until the end of the semester. but right now the association that facilitated my trip here is searching for a replacement family for me, and im not sure if they got me email telling them that im staying put. and if they got that email, im not sure they’ll allow me to stay with this family. im a shoe string away from being homeless until january in a foreign country. i have progressed massively in the language, but even still i don’t like my chances or the size of my budget if i were forced out the door….so why don’t i just call it quits, and tell the association i want to head out early. because my brother and a friend, as well as my mom and younger brother a week later, will be coming to visit me in Paris in January. so there’s this weird mix of feelings right now. January is drawing near which will hold a lot of fun, and good times, capped off by heading home. and i really do enjoy being here, but there’s is this ominous cloud hanging over me filled with the doubt of my current residential and social situation. i have had so many wonderful experiences and met so many cool people so far during my stay here. and i would love to continue, but sometimes i feel like it’s not even my decision any more. in short, i have so many different and contradictory feelings running through me i feel like i might explode!!!!! if anyone reads this, i want you to take a deep breath when you’ve finished. then exhale and think about how beautiful life is…its not to be neglected
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It sounds like you should stick it out. You have one place to stay, and the association you came with looking for a second. Don't worry about it. Enjoy yourself.
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I agree with eqspike, and I encourage you to be very candid with the association who placed you. If they are associated with a college or other school, they should be responsible for making sure that you are safe and secure. And the girlfriend should also understand that this is a gerat oppotunity for you and should be patient. If not, ask your family if she can tag a long and come over in Jan. If that were the case, she probably wouldn't mind waiting at all. It sounds like you still have a somewhat postivie attitude; hope that holds for you! Bon chance!