, but that does’nt make it any easier.its a year now and hey thought things were improving but now i find myself on a website shouting help so there goes that theory. ok the background. well i fell in love at the age of 16 , now 27 , really i was the whole love at first site thing, within a year id plucked up the courage and worked my magic and we were going out, well more than that we were deeply in love. the following 9 years we were that perfect couple, lived with each other for 6 years , travelled the world for 2 years, helped each other through all we faced. we trusted each other beyond so much so we didnt even have to think about it, we told each other everything, or so i thought. we had discussed marriage for a couple of years and agreed we would when we were finacialy secure, and after our travels we had moved back to our small town and were making things work.so although we decided there was no need to get engaged i was going to surprise her with a ring last christmas day. my life changed forever one night last november tho. sitting at dinner she just came out with it, we’r having a break, in an instant i knew it was over, and found later she had been cheating on me for a few months. so the last year iv been through all the stages, shock ,blame , depression , emptyness , anger , regret. and now i find myself at , what now? really thats what im asking? im 27 , an intelligent guy , who had his whole life mapped out, but put his faith and trust in something so fragile , another persons heart.i have never got any answers,and iv had to accept the person i knew no longer exists her eyes are glazed with emptyness and guilt. her family will get her back one day,they cant stand what she did and the drug addict she’s left me for, but i know i will never see the girl i loved again, in my head iv had to say goodbye, and i feel sorry for the shell she’s left behind. i have no qualifications or dreams left in me now.i haven’t so much as kissed another girl in 11 years, and apparently being a good looking bloke is meant to help, i will try to cancel my heart for now and help myself. i know i will need to leave where i am, i cant afford to stay, i will leave all i have but also all iv lost.really i consider anything , iv looked at aid work but again that requires qualifications, i consider packing my bags and just seeing where i end up but really i want to find something more, iv never really know what career path i would take now i find myself in a dead end job and living with my parents, a situation which frustrates me everyday , tho my family have been great. well if your still reading thanks and i would appretiate any advice , really im open to all suggestions and i know the world is my oyster.. thanks.
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i'm so sorry about ur ex, thats a horrible thing to do, your story is sad and moves me. (i'm sorry if i'm not much help) i honestly think you should maybe meet some knew ppl, like going to er..clubs mayb or just hanging out with friends, do u feel like your ready to go into another relationship? i no trusting ppl is going to be hard for you, n proberly alrede has, a friend of mine had cheated on his gf n i didn't see how he could, or what drove him to it, because he said he was perfectly happy with her, i never understood, why he couldn't just be honest with her, he broke her heart! all i'm trying to say is, i'm here for you, and you deserve better!!
